Taking Control

I lost 2 pounds this morning. I am feeling really good. I notice I don’t eat lunch until late and I’m going to have to correct that as I’d rather have lunch around 1 vs. 3. Makes dinner very late. I am not feeling very hungry!

I picked up some oolong tea also as I saw it in the store so I thought I’d give it a try. There are many health benefits to oolong tea so, why not? I drink green tea already.

I had a bad night last night. I made the horrendous mistake of going to my favorite upscale grocery store for some specialty items. I love this store but NOT on this diet. They do taste test of foods, cook ribs, chicken, pork, fresh pastry, and oodles of deserts. I came home and thought of nothing but food. Not cravings, just thinking of food, all the food I saw I wanted to taste it as I love good food, the taste, texture, smell, feel in my mouth. I had to fight the urge to fix something out of my frig or run back and grab a rack of ribs!!

But while I was laying in bed thinking of the food, I realized, I wasn’t having a craving. I did not have a profound uncontrollable overwhelming desire to have chocolate (my drug of choice) or any food for that matter. I just wanted the damn food. This was like an epiphany, I have control. My control. Much like the song Janet Jackson sang way back in 1984.

This is a story about my Control. Control of what I say and Control of what I do, Control of what I EAT! And this time, I’m going to do this my way!